Don't let me forget.
With every babe we've been given, the reality grows stronger. I may not do this again. The magnitude of the gift, the fleeting moments of this crazy time. There are no guarantees. Only right now. I don't want to forget.
And I don't want to forget not just because I may not do it again but because I can't do you again. This is your time. The time of you. To soak in not just what a miracle it all is but the unique miracle that is you.
I want to remember the matching top crinkles of your sweet ears.
The dark fuzz of your shoulders and the softer than soft cheeks. The lips that beg to be kissed.
The loll of your head after a nurse and despite my attempts to fix what looks so uncomfortable, your return right back to that same position.
The mid-doze smiles and grimaces, random sighs and dainty squeaks. The softer than silk gloss of your newborn hair.
The wrinkles of your toes and the surprise in your eyes when your tiny limbs are let loose. The tiny remains of vernix trapped in a few creases.
The stork bite. The button of a nose. The lines of milk that dribble and dry to your chin.
Even the strange things. The reptilian peel of your newly born skin. The ridiculously long fingernails. The things that in fancy newborn photo shoots might be mourned or airbrushed out. Those too. I want them all.
They are you. This gift.
Even the hard things. The waves of melancholy and hormonal rushes that without warning sweep over my being. The afterpains. The sore engorgement and muscles that ache.
The toe-curl of a bad latch. The frustration of those moments when you root and snort though what you want is waiting right in front of you. Even the agony of a wave of labor as you came into this world. I don't want to forget. Because it was all you.
Being here.
Oh my goodness! Benedict is absolutely gorgeous! I love, love, LOVE these precious photos! The tiny toes and dimpled little fingers, scrumptious! =) Thanks for sharing!
ReplyDeleteI just adore him already, I'm so glad he's here. =)
ReplyDeleteHe is the darlingest ever. How I love all these newborn sweet traits. Glad he's in your arms!
ReplyDeleteWonderful! Snuggle him and remember it all. He is his own little miracle.
ReplyDeleteOh my goodness. This is absolutely gorgeous, in word and image. Thank you for a rush of reminders tonight. I feel this, too, each time - what if I never get to do this again? So good to soak it all up.
ReplyDeleteHe's beautiful! Thank you for those reminders to live in the present moment.
ReplyDeleteMary, this is beautiful...and so is he! I'm so glad he's finally arrived and so glad you are soaking up the small moments.
ReplyDeleteIt was so beautiful that you wrote this down! I always think, "I'll never forget this," but somehow the images and feelings fade and I find myself trying to remember what it was I didn't want to forget :(
ReplyDeleteSo precious.
ReplyDeleteooooh he is so sweet. every baby is so sweet. I am counting down till my best friend births her baby so I can revel in newborn-ness again.
ReplyDeleteThis is perfect! You captured it all, in pictures and words, so beautifully!
ReplyDeleteOkay, labor can start an minute now... :)
ReplyDeleteBeautiful - just like my own fuzzy, peeling week-old boy :)
ReplyDeleteBeautiful, beautiful sentiments and so true!
ReplyDeleteSo beautiful, Mary! I feel this everytime I rock Maksim to sleep or cuddle with Anna. I want to bottle up every moment and just hold them forever as they are.
ReplyDeleteJust lovely: your baby and your sentiments both!
ReplyDeleteThe real newborn photoshoot, I like it! in glad you didn't airbrush any of the baby details.
ReplyDelete<3 I love him :)
ReplyDeleteso beautiful
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